“I Can Never Be Any Woman's Dream man, I Have My Reasons” — Didi-Omah Augustine Chinazaekpere

From my knowledge of the books I have read on relationships, marriage, divorce and breakups. I have come to built myself before my 24 years that my marriage is a big difference. At the tender teenage age, I began reading marriage and sex books. Reading marriage and child training books from my mother's library to books outside the home, and from different Christians and secular books and information on marriages and sex.

Executive, imagine someone that before 22 years old, he has know how to love, seduce a woman, make love with a woman, all types of kiss - vampire kiss, butterfly kiss, French kiss. Even the kiss that turns a random lady on immediately then sex follows.

I was privilege to access so many books and content and information on sex, love, marriage, relationship, child training, divorce and breakups.

Building myself to build my family strong and have an enjoying marriage with my partner.

But here lies the problems, when you are seeking for a man like me — you should be built up too; or you will see me too good to be yours. Outside, he is business minded and Christian focus — but you think he is a saint, not in marriage & relationship. So, the problem with many relationship now is that they are created on ignorance.

You want to get into marriage, you have not taken any book on marriage and relationship, even the Bible knowledge of marriage — you do not have. Most of them views are from their family pattern, friends advices, or observations. Your view is from movies you are watching. Most men watch porn a lot, and expect their women to deliver like the porn stars — It is impossible.

I will and can never step on the toes of my wife; because, I am not blind and I am not wicked. Executive, why will step on my wife's toes, when I am not blind and wicked. It is only a blind person that steps on people's toes without knowing; and a wicked person that steps on someone's toes to cause pain — and I am not any of them.

Like I usually say, I don't enter or venture into anything without purpose, and having proper thorough knowledge of it.

As a woman, you out of control, cheated on your man — you indeed loves your man, and still cheat on him — it happens, out of control. For you to save your relationship, tell him first after the cheat incident. Stop hiding it and keeping it covered; the day that leak will occur, you might not like the outcome. No one is good. Like I usually say, there is no good man today without an evil action. There is no evil man without a good part. It just that they are committed to either good or evil — to become the person they are.

I can never be any woman's dream man, Executive I have my reasons. Sex and love making are two different things entirely. I study these two: sex and love making, to the extent of being filled with the energy. Why? Because sex kills youths and waste their potentials. Poor love making destroys home and promote cheating.

Sex is not love, and love is not sex. I have never seen from the scriptures and from the principles of life, where it is stated that sex is love. Sex is for strengthening union in marriage and for procreation. Not if you love me as you claim, have sex with me. A man can be having sex with you as many times, and still marry a lady he just met some months ago — without having sex with her. Executive, yes it is possible; why do men patronise prostitutes? If you say sex is love. 

Men use sex for satisfaction, and women use sex for connection. Men just want the body satisfaction, women wants the bonding. That's why when a woman truly loves a man, she submit sex at the bed without struggle just to fix the bond. She needs the emotional connection, but if the man is hmmm, he will just give in, and leaves when he wants to. So when you know she is not your type, please don't pull her pants down.

I keeps saying this, when you know he is not your type of man, please free him away, and don't eats his money. Because when you do, be ready to clean up the plate after eating. This is for both the men and the women. Executive.

"My man can not satisfy me," the problem may not neccessary be his manhood but his poor reaction to love making. Some women will just lie down like a log of wood, or touch small and relax for the man to be on motion. And when on mistakes, the man meets his sexual match — the cheating becomes his hobby, and that's dangerous. Communication is a great key.

So I keep thanking God for the family I came from. I personally love deep study and research. Executive, this attitude of mine have expose me to bad, satanic or demonic, good, and godly knowledge — I am saying the truth. Not the surface, I mean the deep knowledge of darkness, light, love, godly, bad, hatred, satanic, demonic. So dangerous when not control, I would have ended up being anything not of light. I thank God for His daily guidance and deliverance.

© Didi-Omah Augustine Chinazaekpere 

Source: Didi-Omah Diary